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It's been so long...
Saturday, February 04, 2012 @ 1:05 PM


Here i am, again, blogging. Oh my god. I miss blogging so much. I think I should be doing this often. So, how are you guys? Good? Alhamdullilah. Well, I'm having a new life right now. I've done with my N level, last year. But the results doesn't turned out good. And now, i'm moving on with life at ITE Yishun Campus.

As you can see, my picture, above. Yes, he's still my good boyfriend. We are still together. Hehe. This coming 13th, is our 2nd year together. So fast? Yes. Ups and Downs a lot. Countless.

Alright, today is Saturday. Please enjoy your weekends everyone. Xoxo.

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Hey baby!
Saturday, May 07, 2011 @ 10:44 PM


Baby, I love you. :')

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THE WORLD DON'T KNOW OUR LOVE STORY.
@ 1:18 PM

There's always a reason behind our smiles.

Whatever shits happen yesterday, love was there to tell me that he doesn't hate me and yet he loves me. I don't care what people think. I am leading my life not them. I would rather lost many friends than I lost my own family member. Luv was there for me and he tries to cheer me up when I am looking down. I feel his love and I know he would always be there for me. My trust for him has not being broken yet. Although I had a lot of fights with him, I still trust his love. I am glad that my relationship does not have any third party. Alhamdullilah.

When I was down yesterday, when all the fucked up things happen during our day out, I knew that you are looking at me. With your sad eyes to look at me. Sigh, I wish I could hug tightly. Our love story, no one will ever know. It's always been between me and you love. Now, my tears feels like rolling, seriously.

Love, it's already 1:24pm and yet you are still asleep. I am going off later on and you are going off tomorrow morning. Please take good care of yourself love. I'll miss you and will meet once you reached back home in Singapore. Forever you are my love.

P/s: Shits happens everyday.

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The best part of me is ALWAYS you.
Monday, May 02, 2011 @ 10:41 AM

Rauf, I miss you dear.

How am I supposed to tell you that I miss you when you don't even care? Maybe you do care but you don't show it. I miss you when I was gone. How are you doing there outside? I hope you're doing great. Great as in being faithful, trust & honesty. I was worried and my heart wasn't okay at all. Everything was just turning upside down because I couldn't get through you. I don't receive text messages that you miss me. How sad am i, baby :(

Sayangz, I miss you so much down here. I hope you do call me as I am desperate to hear your voice. I wanna meet you today baby, please :(

I don't want to feel as I was being cheated. I want you to be with me, forever and will never end.

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THE TRUTH.
Thursday, April 28, 2011 @ 9:07 PM

My love is still strong and will never ever fades away.
I love you so much.

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I need you here :(
Saturday, April 23, 2011 @ 10:15 PM

Tell me why I'm in love with this guy.

I've hurt him too much. I've been breaking his heart. I'm telling myself that I am not gonna do it again. I am telling myself to make an improvement from now. It takes time to heal boyfriend's heart now. No matter what, I am not gonna give up towards my love. He's been there whenever I need him. He's like my vain and blood right now. Without vain, the blood couldn't show their love. I'm telling him that I love him, everyday. Yes, without fail right love? :)

I hope we could be like how we used to. I really miss the time we had together. I need your hug, kiss, forehead kiss, shoulder and everything. The most importantly, I need you to be by my side. Please call me as soon as possible love. I need to hear your voice, like seriously. I told you that I am thinking about us every second right? Yes, without fail baby.

You're the only one that I've been thinking of lately. Please be here with me all the way. Be inside my future and till my death. I love you always do baby boy.

P/s: Baby, I love you. Abdul Rauf Muhammad Don, you brighten up my days! :-*

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I love you, forever.
Thursday, April 21, 2011 @ 10:39 PM

Only one,

Despite from the fights I had, I told myself to be strong and this is the way of having relationship. All the bad and huge fight that I had, I wanted it to vanished off from my mind and heart. It kills me badly. But who cares now? I am still loving my Sexy Boyfriend. He was the one who tries to cheer me up whenever I'm down and correct me when I'm wrong. Sometimes, I don't know how to tell him that I really love him so much.

The word I love you, it's like common word and I've been saying it for every second, mins, hours. I hope he knows that I really love him and wanting him to do his best. As for now, we had been together for 1 year 2 months. See how strong our love is? I hope you do :)

Abdul Rauf is the sweetest guy. B, I really need your hug right now. You know I am feeling down right? Yes, sayang, after you read my post, please do call me. I am looking forward for something that I've been waiting for :'(

I love you so much Sexy Husband. Gimme a kissy kissy kiss~

P/s: Goodnight, I love you. I miss bedtime story. :'(

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Thursday, March 24, 2011 @ 11:21 AM

Meet my cutest boyfriend, ♥.


Aw, I really miss blogging so much. So how's my people out there? I hope you guys are leading a happy life. As for me, I really have to work hard for my N this year. It is not pretty easy as you can easy. I've been spending my day in school, most of the time. Meet my girlfriends, guyfriends and my love everyday really give my confident to study. I never want to give up on my studies, never :')

I bet you guys asking what am I doing here at home?

One word: OVERSLEPT!

I don't know why I couldn't hear the alarm clock. I was freaking nervous and called baby. I apologize to him that I didn't wake him up too! I cried in the morning and kept on saying sorry. I really wanted to meet him in school today. I was excited to meet him last night but thanks to me everything was ruined :'(

I am leaving tomorrow after school. That's the reason why I need my baby so much. I am missing him like crazy already. All I need is his entertainment now. I really need him to call, text me. I am gonna be away for 3 days 2 night. K.L is already waiting for my arrival.

Baby, please don't miss me too much when I'm away alright? I am sorry if I am gonna break our promises that I won't cry tomorrow when I am leaving. You know me too well right? I cannot be away from you too far~ Please do take care of yourself when I am away. Don't call anyone, don't text anyone. Wahliao, you know later I jealous. How? Hehehe. Baby, it is just thursday and I really need you to entertain me :'(

Baby, I miss you, xx.

1 year 3 months is not enough,.

Mixed feelings.
Friday, February 04, 2011 @ 10:37 PM

I'm here waiting, waiting, waiting and waiting. And I felt misery.

I thought my days would be better because I could talk to you, text with you, laugh with you, meet you but it seems I'm not too sure about it. I feel like I'm not being appreciated when I'm here in Singapore. For you, I stayed up here and while my cousins were all enjoying. I put myself into effort to do my homework and to hope that you would entertain me. Maybe, you're just too busy with I-don't-know. Or maybe with Family(if this, I would understand..). Sometimes, you're feeling tired without doing something. I just couldn't accept that you are so weak in something. Please be strong luv :'(

I might be leaving tomorrow morning. I hope you will have fun without having me in Singapore. Don't miss me when I'm gone baby. But just to let you know, I'll miss you. You knew it. Don't you ever curang with me. Because it breaks my heart so badly. I trust you when I'm gone later. I'm sorry if this post hurt you so badly but you know what? I'm hurt than you do Luv.

Goodnight, sweet dreams, sleep tight, don't let the bed bugs bite, dream of me, baca doa sebelum tidur. I love you baby cute! :)

P/s: If you care, please give me a call even though you're tired or not. I would love to hear your voice before I go. :')

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Every smile I had, there's always torn inside my heart.
Monday, January 24, 2011 @ 6:04 PM

What's the point of me smiling everyday but still there's always torn inside my heart? I thought everything could make things better but it seems not. Problems keep on approaching me. It scares me whenever I had one. I'm afraid of losing people and more about it. Dealing and keeping promises is not as easy speaking out ABC from your mouth. Keeping promises shows that you love that person and you want to make things right for them. It's the matter of choice, you want to keep it or not. I'm so down that everyday I don't know what to do when the one I love breaking the promises that we had before. I don't know how to react. I don't want to get pissed or upset but it breaks my heart so badly that I feel like crying so badly!

I'm taking a serious examinations this year and I don't know how to cope it with my situation like this. My heart won't heal if this situation keep on going. I'm afraid of everything. I'm a big coward girl. I may be laughing all the day long but deep inside my heart.. who knows? Allah knows how I feel. People might think I've been thinking about my own life and everything. But apart of this, don't you know I care about someone so much?! I am always in tears for my own special boyfriend. I cared him so much. I don't want him to repeat the same thing, same mistakes and everything. I don't want him to come to me and say that he regrets again.

I don't want to say how much hurt I've been facing. Everything would just turn into my fault. I just want that someone to know that I really cared about you and loved you so much. I'm sorry.

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